Recreating Myself

What do you do when you hate your job, don't like the prospects and the path your career is taking you? Well you apply for Grad school of course and try not to think to hard about the additional academic loans you are now stacking on top of your undergraduate debt.

So I am going back to school. And it has been a long time since I was a student. I better get used to it. In some ways it feels like I should have done this a long time ago and yet, I wouldn't have steered myself in this direction originally fresh with my BA. I think it was necessary to run the string of jobs that I did--a path that one by one, each of them took me further from my major and my interests/love. I know that sounds very idealistic or even romantic. But do you expect anything less from an English Lit. major?

A. is more excited I think than I am about it. Which is nice. I think I am just still in shock and a little nervous in juggling academics with my current job. Working for my current employer is kind of like working for the mob. They insist on loyalty to their core mission which is 1. Sell X, 2. Make money, 3. Have fun while doing it. And since I am the Web geek, I distance myself from sales as much as possible. I also think their sales tactics and ethos is barbaric and absence of conscious most of the time. All that to say, if they ever found out that I am pursuing a degree in a career that is other than their core mission, they will see it as a disloyalty and I will be put on a short leash. But I will play the part long enough to win the Oscar.

Little E. the other day asked me if I would still be his Papa when I became a teacher. I assured him I would. But then he went around solicited a second opinion from several others.